PAIN OF ABUSE

 PAIN OF ABUSE

Where will I find the place to hide my pain
Where will I find the friend to share my pain
My feelings can burn ice
My feelings can hole a mountain
Where will I cover my pain
And save thousand souls from dying

My hands are eager to fist and hammer out pride
My heart is pounding to sound of volcano burst
I am hunting innocence, to tell it the reality of life
I am spitting ego right on its face
My hands are red even before committing sins
I can feel the vacuum inside of me
Oh Lord! How will I find peace now?

The pain is no more controllable
I find peace in metallic rock and the war movies
The hatred gives me peace
This transformation is making me savage
I quench my thirst of violent hatred
Then with my heart fulfilled, I feel peace.

I now realize what mistakes I did
I now realize what anger makes me
But this anger is not on me
It’s the creation of someone else
I am just the media to transfer it

 Anger is the most danger of evils
It closes our eyes to the obvious
It makes us a messenger of the inhuman
But had it been so easy to tame
Then the history of the world would have been different
There would not have been Chanakya, Mahatma or Hitler.

THE TEST OF TRUST

THE TEST OF TRUST

I lead a way so desolate, I travel a road so lonely,

The road itself forsakes the travellers who step foot on it

Every five steps I meet the scarlet and it sings me to peace

For the next four steps my heart awaits the scarlet

Its songs are the air I breathe and the hope I rest on.

It sings me to strength, It sings me to gay

For being so certain I keep on going

Without caring the loneliness and the pains

Then suddenly I do not hear it anymore.

I keep on going further, for thinking if I missed it

Then suddenly I realized the song is gone

I can hear only my breath and the song repeating in my ears

Now I am only left with myself and the air around me

I close my eyes to gather my hope and strength

As I open my eyes I realize I am left in a desert

Now I don’t even have a path

Till the end of horizon I see nothing but dunes of sand

I thank my Lord and keep travelling towards the sun

I see scorpions and snakes sliding in the water of sand drops

I see my sweat sinking in the sand

I see the sun burning my skin and my clothes

With the hope of hearing the scarlet at the end of torture

I keep burning my heels with the pricks of sand

My lips start drying and eyes start seeing mirages

For I kneel and with all hopes lost, I give up.

Then from the distant horizon of the sky

I hear the distant song of the scarlet

The song rotates and reaches my thirsty ears

I hear the sharp sound of the scarlet

Within a single instant all the sand rises up

And flies by me as if it was never there

The sound is now clearer and with it bring the clouds

I close my eyes with the pleasure of the cold winds

It starts drizzling and as I open my eyes

I am back in my lonely desolate path in the jungle

But I have my friend scarlet with me

Singing for me more than ever before

My heart asks it, “Where were you my friend”

And it replies, “Oh epitome of simplicity,”

“I was misguided by the demon of shyness and mistrust,

It told me that you were a monster

And I should return back if I wanted to live.”

Thus I asked, “then how are u here?”

It says with tears, “for I saw your face withered

And your body tortured, when I close my eyes

Thus my heart called for and I returned”

I was reaching the end of my path 

With my friend near me, I asked no more

But as I reached the end, I saw beauty

I saw nature, I saw paradise in a moment of truth

And then I understood,  my Lord tested me

And thus I reached Him happily with my friend

Thus He tests not only the strength to withstand

But also our trust on others and others on us.

FACING DEATH

Explanation : This is a video of the yet to be released game - RAINBOW 6: Patriots. In this game persons are converted into suicide bombers and they are asked to blow up places in ransom of their family. In my poem below I have tried to explain the mindset of such a suicide bomber, amidst the fight between evil (patriots) and good (Rainbow Six Team-Titans).

FACING DEATH (A Tribute to Rainbow 6)

Wrapped and covered with the name of death
Thinking what did I do to deserve this
Guns, bullets and bombs shouting their shrieks,
I remain just bewildered at the downfall of humanity

My life is just not me, its my family
At the footsteps of death I care only of them
I am surrounded by the patriots
I am to run to Times square to die

Then came the arrows of the Titans
They snipe the dogs just like tomatoes
I just wanna run to death and save my love and child
The Titans jump from buildings and sprint all around

Am I going to live and my family gonna die
Are the heroes a curse for me
They jump and keep pushing the patriots to the ground
Then they kill all the canines and rush to my help

But is it too late, I am gonna run and save my family
The leader of titans inform me the good news
My family is gonna live
The snakes are still around my body
They try to get them away

Then I hear “remote detonation”
Here comes the death for me at the moment of happiness
I willingly am pushed into the river
As I see the last face of the modern warrior

In the final moments my life replays in my mind
I ask again and again “What did I do”
But now the question is no more relevant

                                                    For I am going to dying on my Birthday.

ITS TIME FOR THE ABSOLUTE

ITS TIME FOR THE ABSOLUTE

The apostles of maliciousness
The prophets of violent dreams
The envoys of inept desires
The militias of obscenities
The ghosts of carnages
The monastics of irreligion

The time has come
For the rise of the Absolute

No more the dark will pride
No more the unjust will prevail

For the time has arrived

The Absolute has come without prayers
It has come without cries for hopes
It flew-by and the shrieks of the living-dead silenced
It rode on the most white stead
With the longest of whips
It cracked out the darks inside each mortals

The light followed It, as if its slave
The aura fumed the dirth of the insatiable greed
In Its hand was the long whip with the tip of untold charm
This whip rode with It like the weapon of unforeseen strength

The dark, greed, desire, violent knew its time of the great fight
They combined and formed the fiercest demon of negativity
The Absolute smiled at the form
And with a single powerful swing of the stretched whip
The demon cracked and fell as if it was never there.

Suddenly the gloom spread all over disappeared
Light was everywhere, the eyes closed feeling the pain of the bright
Slowly when the eyes opened they saw light everywhere
Even a small speck of soil radiated.
The Absolute was nowhere
Then the imprudent mortals realized
The Liberator had dispersed
Submerged into each particle of the Universe.