Of God and Man

Deja-vu events are peculiar. More peculiar is their interaction with humans. But the most interesting part is how for every event that occurs in one life the human brain tries to understand it as a deja-vu. N thats where d problem is. Its not the similarity in events but the dissimilarities that matter. N still we plan keeping in mind that every event is just a deja-vu.

There are two forces in the world behind every event. One force tries to make the event completely stochastic and the other force tries to make it completely repetitive (but most of the time this force makes the event dependant on certain events thus making it predictive). The human brain is a bit unused to understanding the stochastic events and their probability. Thus it is away from the first force. But the human brain plans, executes and regulates according to predictive factor model and repetitive probability models. Thus it is near to the second force. 

What kind of politician I need to represent me

In the recent general elections we saw a plethora of politicians and almost same number of political ideas. But no one ever thought or atleast shared what kind of person he would like as his MP. I thought a lot and imagined an ideal politician. Ofcourse it was my foolishness because in India you can get an ideal girl/boy but not an ideal politician. So what are the characteristics of my ideal politician:

1) He may be from any religion but he acknowledges and respects all the religions. India, what today is, is a combination of many cultures and religions. Thats why India is so different from all other countries. We Indians know what is right and what is wrong. We believe on the voice which comes from our heart. So any religion in India is not the pure form of it but it has the combination of all or some of the good things from different religions. So my leader may follow any religion but has to respect all.

2) He has to be simple and down-to-earth. He has to be a representative of the simple people who constitute our society. He can wear nething or eat nething as per his liking, because India gives the right to all its citizens to do it. But I would like my leader not to show off with kurta n pyjama or a casual jeans n t-shirt. I prefer him with a formal shirt and formal pant. He may eat nething but it should be what others too have. He should not have meals in 5-star or an unhygienic dhaba. His food habits show people that what u r is what u eat. Aise Maa ka khana is d best.

3) His voice should constitute confidence and love in people. His words should win hearts and not break hearts. Our Indian scriptures and culture has always given very high importance to speech and words. He should also. Each of his word should come from the depth of his ethics and belief. He should preferably always speak true but can change to benefit his people. He should not show-off like cry or weep. His words should be enough to win hearts.

4) He should be sensitive to others problems. He should not be diplomatic. If a problem arrives then he should forward it to the right person and try to solve it within a particular time. If he thinks that he wont be able to do it then he should tell that he may try but the problem may not be solved by him or even an outright negative reply.

5) His house should be open to all and he should also visit all the places in his constituency. He should try to take care of all as his own. His way of working should be very strict but his words and presence should be soothing. Although his words will be sweet but his better part will be his work. He should not be a person who talks more but function/works more.

6) His best part, besides his presence and way of working, should be his intelligence and reasoning. Intelligence and strategy will be the pillar on which he will stand. He should have the ability to foresee what his opponents will do and how the nature and people will react to a policy or change.

7) He should have a high education background. He must have passed atleast graduation from a good institution. I would also like the Election Commission to keep a written test for our netas. It should at par (in terms of toughness) with CAT, IIT-JEE or IAS-UPSC. He should have excelled in this test with good marks.

These are some of the characteristics I expect from my MP. U may say that I am imagining an ideal person and leader like Lord Rama or Krishna. But in today's time we need persons with above characteristics to be our leader. Our MPs should be the best of us not the worst of us.

A Lover or a Friend

It was the first time I saw the tiny star-smiles

The blinks and the flickers from miles

A tiny angel figure and a face so baby

Made me wonder why u looked so shabby

I desperately wanted to talk and share with u

Peep into those shinny eyes and feel that milky blue

Then I saw u walking and talking in my work 

And I drifted to put together the bottle and cork

Something like magic happened

And we jumped steps till our lips no more dampened

I called a couple times, to get together

You somehow feared but we were farther

The first meet and I was insatiably into you

Trying to weave horses and heavens with scissors and glue

You kept on talking and I kept on dreaming
Of I and u and the days we are going living
You talked of sense and logic
I talked of love, soul and magic

Then we parted and the dark clouds erupted

U fought with me and my soul corrupted

Then we met again and this time I told you my secret

Till 3 in the morning we talked of chances and regret

You may not have noticed but u touched me first

My pulse jumping and my heart quenching its thirst

You opened up and I saw thorns and tears

But for me now the dark cloud clears

You were trying to get back ur love

And I was trying to white a black dove

In love, no conditions and u may not reciprocate

I didnt wish to lose u and then locate

Thus I accepted u as a gift and sadly as a suffering friend

U seemed comfort with it and u confided in me a trend

D last day I left the country and as we walked d dark street

You forgot me and just kept jumping for others greet

When I returned, I saw you happy with him

I ignored u and kept myself in my own grim

Thus the story went on and I saw loneliness in d end

Wondering I was sad or happy, a lover or a friend.

Oh Girl ! Oh Girl !

Oh girl ! Oh girl !

So many thoughts and so much to sort

So much to achieve and so many to retort

Life, a heap of expectation

But I wish just smiles n jubilation

People keep flocking me, why >:(

Let me go away, let me fly

People take me to be cruel, smart n cunning

But I m just a girl who loves shinning

In all of such chaos I found some peace

A hand where my duplicacy cease

But before I could lean on his shoulder

My dark and tempting past made me colder

I had to leave his peace and bright

My devil boyfriend called me back for a night

In the devil's arms I pretend smiles

But inside I was a hundred dead isles

Each moment cursed me to be an ignorant and fool

I am dying in my own blood pool

Oh girl ! Oh girl ! what I did.

People think that I m happy

Even I thought I was lucky

But those nights with unquenched loneliness

Told me that I was miles away from happiness

Leave me, Leave me and let me stare at the stars

Release me, release me of your expectation bars 

Give me the strength, Oh Lord, to leave the devil

And lead my life without invisible tears and cavil

The peaceful hand of the white may not accept me

But I m sure he will let me be

With him, around him, seeking knowledge and peace

I shall forget myself and succeed with ease 

So happy n so in calm I shall stay

I shall never let any happiness go away

Then my life shall not be a stained mirror

A deadly mixture of intoxication and error

I can live my life and achieve my dreams

Without any expectations or any screams

Oh girl ! Oh girl ! I shall hold ur hand.

In the darkness of the night

In the dark corners of the fright

In the dirty closets of the mind

Me, u shall not find

Seek me in the silence of the night

Seek me in the bravery of a knight

Seek me in the smile of a poor child

Seek me in ur heart's wild

Gather urself and rise, for life is still breathing

Ur success and ur achievements will be soothing

And at the end U shall not thank me

But u shall thank urself for choosing me

And when you turn on your feet 

Bow in respect, to repay me and greet

U realize I was just the brightness 

Hidden deep within u, lost in darkness.